Monday, September 14, 2009
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Ok this is gona officially be my last post in this blog cause freaking china doesn't allow me to do sharing time of my experience here on blogger or facebook. Stupid country blocked it out. So don't come back to this blog anymore, cause I won't.
Cheeky Monkey blogged at 7:40 AM
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Cheeky Monkey blogged at 7:40 AM
Thursday, September 3, 2009
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So restless... Not even excited going to China this weekend. Something is bothering me but I'm not quite sure what, do I?
I need someone to be here.
Cheeky Monkey blogged at 9:13 PM
Monday, August 31, 2009
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And now I scream... "FINALLY!!! EXAMS ARE OVER!!!"
Even though it was only 3 papers, it was pretty dreadful since I did not really study for them :P MMS was the hardest. Didn't understand shit I say. Electrical stuff were never for me. It's like trying to make me understand Chinese!!! Well anyway today was Math and I actually did last min studying at home (which I normally don't do) and it saved my SORRY ASS!!! If I didn't do any revision in the morning, I think I would have lost more than 25 marks...
Aside from the exams, I made a new friend!!!! Actually not a new friend, just that more than a friend now than compared to a club mate only. And best of all, she share the same taste of music as me!!! Now isn't that awesome!!! I got a lot of friends who love rock and all, but I ain't got none who's a lover of hardcore/screamo. Now that I've got a friend who loves what I love, my knowledge in that area has expanded. Found more awesome bands!!! ETF, BTF, BMTH and more... I know their kinda big in the underground but, I don't know the underground before and I still don't!!! :D
China. The one thing which comes to my mind when I think of china, prostitutes. Don't ask me why. But I'm flying off to the land of whores this coming Sunday for a school attachment. I guess it's kinda cool apart from the sluts and all. I wonder what's it like there... Heard they serve dog meat. I keep dreaming that dog meat tastes like beef. LOL
I hope that when I come back I realize that I still feel the same way and not realize it's an another crush. It would be disappointing even though I may not be ready to take the next step.
Cheeky Monkey blogged at 11:55 PM
Saturday, August 29, 2009
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Confusion's all I see Frustration surrounds me Solutions bid farewell Sedation, what the hell? Uncertainty getting stronger every time I see that scene that I see. Cause confusion partners the uncertainty and it lands me in a dilemma and I cannot get a hold of myself.
Cheeky Monkey blogged at 2:03 PM
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
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Exams exams exams all coming. Think imma fail it badly... Can't focus when i see past year papers.
Worse of all... Missed GEMs sem exam. FUCK!!!! And dun have MC. Bummer. Looks like I may actually FAIL GEMS!!!! HOW CAN I FAIL GEMS OMG!!!!!!
Cheeky Monkey blogged at 11:50 PM
Monday, August 17, 2009
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So damn... Sigh...
Love. Life. Responsibility. Goals. Paths. Fate. Destiny. Time. Death. Such mysteries that cannot be actually defined to the deepest depths of reason for me to understand. Why can't I understand? I feel so listless. Don't like being human.
argh...
Cheeky Monkey blogged at 12:06 AM
Sunday, August 16, 2009
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Stepped into an unseen hole and felt a comforting crack Spraining my ankle never felt so good
Anyway 3 days, or should I say 3 nights was all it took to throw me off track from my life. Hardcore DOTA-ing with the guys really made me lose it lol. Now I'm messed up. Can't sleep properly, can't think straight and I don't feel like studying. Damn... I need to study though damn it I hate studying. With exams coming up in 2 weeks I don't know how I've gotten myself into this situation. MMS, lab test and theory are both screwed can't even get 50%. IA, may just be a just pass but the up coming lab test will be a total wreck. Math may very well be screwed up too cause I've not been revising it well.
Speaking of math I hate the examples they have in the notes. The answers of the example questions they have and the ones that I work out myself DON'T MATCH AT ALL!!!! Now how am I suppose to do revision for math if they give me this kinda crap???
Gona go now. Feel like crap can't study much.
I think she's in my head too much. I don't know if I've fallen for her though or is it just a crush.
Cheeky Monkey blogged at 6:30 PM
Friday, July 24, 2009
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Am I hopeless? Am I helpless?
Have I lost my sense of direction? Have I lost my sense of comtrol?
Did I fight for myself? Did I fight to sacrifice?
I'm sick of losing myself. I'm sick of it over and over again when ever it happens just after I've found myself. I mean, I don't know who I am. I've got holes in my life, pieces which I can't find to cover it up to make it whole. It's as if I've been made incomplete, and just letting everything pass through those holes. I feel like those holes are loopholes of a trap or a bad place for people to slip through. Everytime I feel like I've finally found a piece, it seems to be taken away or blown towards the horizon by a wretched wind of some kind. I feel like I've got strings attatched to me and am being puppetted by some puppetteer. God? My demon? Fate? Screw this I'm saying.
To put it in a nutshell, my life is in a fucking unknown shadow that I can never escape from.
I wish my life could be at peace. Either by unsolving it or ending it. When it ends, I'd like to hear the 21 guns salute for it. I know I've done loads of things for loads of people and it have not been noticed nor bothered with, most of them.
But I just want someone, just SOMEONE, to notice me in a different way. I'm not ready or I'm not right? I'm just a guy who needs to be guided. I've figuerd out a few solutions that seem possible to be workable But so far have been proven otherwise So what should I do now? Should I keep waiting? Should I keep fucking trying till my balls rot and drop off and still be hoping for something that I thought to be real, is all just a delusion?
Am I at the end of the road? Have I lost all sense of control? And my mind have taking it's toll I'm in ruins
Screw this bullshit excuse of a life.
Cheeky Monkey blogged at 12:51 AM
Sunday, July 19, 2009
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This all feels underground Like I'm being singled out and belong to another town There was a welcoming feeling but was it a facade Did it all turn bad because of something I said? Where'd I go wrong? What did I ever done wrong?
Cheeky Monkey blogged at 9:41 PM
Monday, June 29, 2009
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I'm dreading this time of year. Actually not this time of year... It's more of this kind of feeling.
This feeling just sucks. It's like your paths have all been cut off suddenly and your lost in a day which is no different from any other you've lived. Maybe it's the things that's left for me to do that I can't complete. That's just too much for me to handle. And things that bugs me cause I can't let it out.
ARGH!!!!!!
Cheeky Monkey blogged at 1:08 PM
Sunday, June 28, 2009
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Dejavu? Misinterpretation?
Did I see wrong or did you want to cover it up?
Either way it happened jsut as I seen it in my head.
And you claim to be a good liar
So should I call you a liar now?
Cheeky Monkey blogged at 9:58 PM
Friday, June 26, 2009
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GAH!!!!~ DAMN YOU HDB!!!
Jackshit HDB decided to build lifts in the older blocks of TPY and it's causing a MAJOR FUSS UP IN MY HOUSEHOLD!!!
Their tearing down my toilet and bathroom now cause they said there were leakages going on at the lower level from our apartment. FUCK THEM!!!! NOW I CAN'T USE THE TOILET PROPERLY!!! Already couple of times I have to run down to the stadium just to bathe. I feel such like a beggar of some sort. Oh and guess what? Now my home is water deprived for 10 whole damn days!!!
This is the ridiculous toilet that they have set up in my kitchen.
It's freakishly small and brought it in pieces. I feel like if I step in that thing, close the door and took a little 360 degree turn on the spot that whole cubicle would fall apart!! What's more, the toilet bowl has got no water in it. It's just a pipe that leads all the way down to the sewers. Ewwwwww man.....
And this is my toilet now. Waht have they done to you!?!?!?
Stuff from the kitchen and living room have been compressed into my room which looks like this now.
Folks even removed the bamboo hangers from the kitchen and installed it into my room -.-
There's my mum sitting on the kitchen table, which is in my living room now, playing Texas Poker on FB.
You see the pots? Those are the water we stored for the... "Poverty times"
Then we got the indian construction workers coming into our place EVERYDAY!!! And I think it's because of that in some twisted way, I've become more racist now.
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Anyway, apart from my "friends" visiting my place everyday, I've been haaving a great time at archery. LOVE THAT DAMN SPORT!!!! It's been Wed, Fri, Sat and Sun for the past 2 and a half weeks like this. And because of this training schedule, I've mastered 50m!!!!!! Eat shit 50! I've began to flip your ass! Now it's time to deliver you TOTAL PAWNAGE!!! And after 50m it's 70m!!! I intend to own, OOOOOOOWWWWNNNNNNN!!!!
I've already made a list of goals to hit. 1: Deliver PAWNAGE to 50m 2: Master 70m 3: Deliver PAWNAGE to 70m 4: Upgrade poundage to 36 5: Upgrade poundage to 42 6: Master 90m 7: Deliver PAWNAGE TO 90m
But anyway today's training was like... ok I guess. Kinda emo for me(won't elaborate) But we had fun with the next pic.
Wei Sheng gave him a vasectomy. And I think he suffered from many other broken bones and injuries and should have been dead. I kept missing his head.
